about me personal
this writeup is to find a partner for myself. if u r a friend/foe of mine, and u know a girl who is about as much weird as me, u could forward my profile link to her. hopefully two frustrated people might lead to less frustration around. moreover, if u dont agree with what i am, please ignore. in no way would my thoughts effect ur life.
while u read this, do remember, reality is not as simple as words. and also, my disbelief doesnt mean i hate people who believe, etc. infact, all most none of my friends are atheists (afaik). and most of my friends, whom i have had discussions with, dont agree with my thoughts.
so, to start with, i am a very liberal guy, not in literal sense, but rather what it stands for. i dont have religion or god. am open to many phenomenons considered taboo in society. i would like people to live and let others live, and to understand that they dont need other persons religion/cast/creed/type to know that he/she wont harm.
so, atleast, with this start, i have ruled out, maybe, more than 99% of girls.
second, i am not looking for an agreement approved by society (marriage). i am looking for a partner who, almost in every sense, is independent from me. but ofcourse, the one and only reason for us to continue with each other would be our emotional dependence on each other. this doesnt mean that i am not looking for longterm relations, rather this writeup is only for that reason (for a longterm relation). i just wont like the relationship to sustain on anything else except our emotional attachment. (99.99% ruled out!)
third, i am considered to be quite an un-emotional guy. but, to the contrary, i have found myself to be emotionally overcharged. and do spend quite some effort hiding it. have liked girls like crazy (well, to be frank, i have known crazier persons), without a hint to anyone. have spent days like hell, without people knowing about it. now and then some things do come out, to people whom i considered to be close, but again, that also doesnt work for me.
although i dont reveal myself, i also dont hide myself either. whenever someone asks frank questions, i am more than willing to explain what i am. but, genuine curiosity is rare indeed.
probably the word ‘introvert’ explains the way i am. hopefully, with a partner (if atall), i might be much more open. but more than that, my partner should always consider straight questions, to get frank answers. i am not a person to be counted for unsaid words.
fourth, i am a little curious type. most of what i am, is because of the curiosities i had, and my attempt to answer them. dont remember the starting, probably learned it as a technique from studies. the major leap came when i had fallen for girls (yeah, count > 1). bad academics and not much apparent reason in life, lead me to ask question, to myself. from ‘why me?’ to ‘why am i asking this?’ to questioning my prejudices. had to reason my self, to continue. falling unsuccessfully is quite a painful but beautiful experience. fortunately, i leaned a few things because of experience, and because i had learned to question. although, correctness of the knowledge gained, is questionable.
the kind i am, it seems difficult to find a matching partner. hopefully, this writeup might improve my chances a tad bit.